Archive for August, 2006

To all my good guy friends

Wednesday, August 30th, 2006

You know who you are. I sent you a message yesterday afternoon and now, again, I repeat and beg of you, please do not ever, ever, treat a fine girl like shit. Whether she cares for you or she loves you, whether she’s a girlfriend or she’s a friend whose love for you is something you just can’t return, whoever she may be in your life. Clique-ish as it may sound, think of your mothers, sisters, girl best friends and how you don’t want them to be treated like that by those that you surely would have called as the bastards and jerks of your kind. Dare to be different. Discipline yourselves. Be the nice guys for once if you feel you are not. The rewards are great in return.

I consider each and every single one of you as "good". I think you are deserving of that complement. Strive to prove that to me if you really consider me in return as a good girl friend of yours whom you have a high regard and respect for, whom you wouldn’t want to see shattered.

I don’t want to wash my dirty laundry in public but my ego’s so bruised that I feel so extremely sorry for myself. Up to now, I still don’t regret loving and giving my all to the guy. I gave it freely, without any pretense. I LOVED unconditionally. That at least I was not the villain in the story, if I might just add out of my pride screaming for acknowledgment.

Having a full and complete realization of just how badly I was thought of and treated by the guy who I trusted most gave me that urge to send you my message. Again, I clarify, I’M OVER HIM. Somehow, the laws of karma and Somebody up there made it a point to erase the remaining blindness I had for the guy who I thought was at least worth my friendship and my respect.

I know my anger and hatred are unhealthy. I pray that someday I could forget these emotions so much so that when I bump into the guy in question, I would at least treat him with civility and respect, something that he did not give me as a girlfriend of convenience for the last two and a half years.

And I promise all of you, without really expecting that you’d heed my call, I would never, ever be treated that way again. I know my worth. The next guy who would come along should know and feel well enough that he has to make himself deserving of the love that I could give.

Santa Rosa City Mayor Joey Catindig: Suspended?

Monday, August 28th, 2006

Breaking news from my dad.

A recommendation for a one-year suspension has been filed by some City Hall employees through the Department of Interior and Local Government (DILG) against incumbent Santa Rosa City Mayor Joey Catindig for a violation of a Civil Service rule. How true? As of press time, a rebuttal and a motion for reconsideration would be reportedly filed.

A few months back, Mayor Catindig was allegedly ambushed. He made it alive.

A year ago, the one he replaced, Mayor Leon Arcillas was ambushed. He died on the spot.

Santa

Rosa

has

one

colorful

political

atmosphere.

And it sucks to be involved and affected.

A Prayer and the Replies

Monday, August 28th, 2006

My day started out gloomy. A far cry from yesterday. Yesterday I wished I had more sleep but I started it right. Today I had enough sleep and woke up early but I wished it didn’t start so I could erase and rewind just like the messages on my phone.

So I composed this little prayer (well, actually, more of a quote):

"One simple known thought that we all too often ignore: PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE. When all efforts fail, have faith. Turn to Him and He’ll provide comfort, one way or another."

It, being more of a quote, I decided to share to all of those in my phonebook who are Globe users, including former bosses (mwehehe) and after a few minutes…

**12+++ messages received**

That number being the most I got ever in just one sitting that has got nothing to do with Merry Christmas, Happy New Year or Happy Birthday, I eagerly opened my inbox.

–> May I know who’s this please? (Eeep… I’ve been putting off telling this person who I am. Hahahaha.)

–> Changed phones. Who’s this? (In the first place, this former colleague can’t remember me. Hahaha.)

… and a number of forwarded quotes as replies plus some "pangangamusta". But the most "patok" that had me almost choking while having breakfast was this one I got from former Speech Comm classmate and hopefully "not-former-UP-Law-schoolmate" Jeifan:

"Hey Precious, when are you coming back to law school? Baka nag-asawa ka na ha…"

Now something tells me I SHOULD really go back. LOL gurl, LOL. =D

LOL

Monday, August 28th, 2006

Never expected that the start of my week would be like this. As of this writing, I still can’t stop grinning from ear to ear what with that little stunt my Korean boss pulled earlier. The details? A…. Haha.. Nevermind.

Anyhoo, all the saints I must have called earlier for fear of coming in late to my class must have wrongly heard my prayer request. I asked not to be late. They gave me a good dose of laughter that they sure must have known I badly needed what with my hell week last week. We had no class as it turned out and, yeah, again, that little stunt courtesy of my wicked boss.

My day started out good too. Couldn’t stop laughing and, again, yes, grinning from ear to ear, due to what my friends had been forwarding me thanks to Globe’s Unlimitxt. Nevermind the fact that I disregarded my screaming intuition that I just passed by my stop and even came to the extent of breathing calmly though later on I would realize that I was already exactly a kilometer away from where I should be going. Nevermind that, well, hehe, I sacrificed my favorite stilettos and walked under the searing sun as I was later rewarded by a majestic view from another boss’ resort at the not-so-faraway town of Victoria, the balut capital of Laguna.

To share some of the fun, here are the pics! Just click each one of ‘em to enlarge. ;)

From_the_viewdeck_at_vice_govs_victoria__4Yeah, yeah, Andy. I know. I’m so "probinsiyana" already what with the hairstyle and the riceland background. Haha.

Mt_makilingl_behind_clouds_from_the_van_1

Not part of the itinerary but thought this view of Mt. Makiling from the van to be really awe-inspiring. It also helped that the van tint served as a great frame for the pic. ;)

P8280964 A pa-cute Friendster moment with a scary-looking pool in the background due to chlorine in it. Shouldn’t it be blue, not green?

P8280967 No. No. No. I wouldn’t jump in there even if it costs me a combination of all of my entire month’s paycheck.

P8280958 Okay Andy, I know you’ve been dying to sing it: "Magtanim ay ‘di biro, maghapong nakayuko…" (taken from the viewdeck)

P8280968 The view and the viewdeck with, again, the scary-looking pool. It sure did ruin this pic. Loved the mountain. Too bad. Sayang talaga.

P8280971 A streamer of my boss in the resort  -  Laguna Vice Governor Edwin Olivarez. Yep Laguna peeps, he’s the owner of the Olivarez Malls where we used to hang out when SM was just a ricefield. Hehe. :)

P8280993 Tita Janet, wife of Vice Governor Olivarez, wanted me to take a pic of this Japanese garden deco set so here it is!

P8280978 Just thought this pic to be really nice with the orchids serving as my photog trick frame. Reminds me of "Secret Garden".

À vous: A damsel in distress

Saturday, August 26th, 2006

NOT.

Oh please. I don’t need saving.

Somehow these guys have got to really learn that I’m not naive. Though I usually don’t judge upfront and immediately and though I could give seemingly endless second chances, Jason, my dear friend from Wave’s Hip Circle, indeed, said it right that he should stay out of my way when I’m scorned, whether it’s him at fault or another guy is.

I never knew just how strongly I could avenge my really, really crushed ego and overly betrayed trust until last night. The impact of what I did overwhelmed me to the point that it shocked me. But of course, that would have never occurred without the help of some friends.

Then again, though I know I have the last laugh, I still have my bitter smile to contend with. Who am I trying to kid? Myself?

Law blockie Maan told me through a forwarded quote last night just how "fun" it is to smile and/or laugh even when you’re about to cry, to give a joke even when you’re already about to give in, to be happy even when you know you just can’t take it anymore; that it is the same when you know you’re crushed and yet you’re trying to make yourself believe that you’re okay.

And I emphasize: I’m NOT a damsel in distress. I can very well manage on my own, thank you very much. I don’t want to take pity on myself even when I’m hurt but then again, every time, I can’t help but ask: Just how many times already did I forcibly try to make myself believe I’m okay by distracting myself with work and hiding behind the glamour of it all?

This is my second post for the day and I guess I really just can’t contain this to myself. I am so infuriated by the very fact of how my ex treated me like a damsel in distress and how the others also saw me as one.

It’s a question of esteem, a question of high regard, a question of respect.

"Cinderella", a song with a revival coming from famous Thai-American artist Tata Young, says it all:

Someday I’m gonna find someone who wants my soul, heart and mind
Who’s not afraid to show that he loves me
Somebody who will understand I’m happy just the way I am, d
on’t need nobody taking care of me

I will be there for him just as strong as he, will be there for me
When I give myself then it has got to be, AN EQUAL THING

I can slay, my own dragon
I can dream, my own dreams
My knight in shining armour is me
So I’m gonna set me free

Random Thoughts: Roll Call!

Saturday, August 26th, 2006

***Really got to learn how to become more detached. No, girls, this is not about anyone in particular, honest. Focus, Precious, focus. *sigh* PJ, you’re right. There really is no other way but up. I truly can’t afford to waste any more of these opportunities in my hands right now.

***I’ve got great friends, really. Haha. "It" cracked me up, Joy! Now I know I don’t regret anything. Until yesterday, I almost ate my own words of not regretting anything. A blessing in disguise though okay, a bit mean. Selfish? We’re just "quits".

***Oh no… It’s Monday already tomorrow!! *groan* Lemme see my sched: 8:30 am  -  San Pedro office, 2:00 pm  -  Victoria resort, 7:00 pm  -  Santa Rosa with the chinky-eyed ones. Hectic!! Hehe. I’m just whining.

***I really want to go into that "unhealthy" ripe melon-boiled shrimp diet. =p I’m gonna suggest that to the Bubba Gump chefs on my next visit.

***Maybe it’s for keeps, maybe not. Nobody really knows. But one thing’s for sure, I don’t want to go into interpreting again some supernatural/divine intervention.

***Ugh! Is he serious?!! 5pm and alone with him in his office! "Independent", huh. Man you’ve got to be kidding. Sure I am independent but I certainly am not naive!

***Awww… Tina, I miss you so much. I miss our "sight seeing" activity in beautiful Greenbelt. Haha. Thanks for the advice you gave Leo about what he learned. Then again, I certainly do appreciate his initiative of telling me. Because of him, there’s nothing else to regret anymore as I’ve finally reached a conclusive finality to what I thought was a neverending being-stuck-in-a-rut-prematurely-trying-to-get-over-scheme-of-mine. Hehe. How are you?

***GKNB? What? Still no response huh? Hmm… Parrot or Eagle? Head or Tail? "Bato, bato, picks" na lang kaya. =)

***Best, I’m currently a boarder (Uh… Dweller?) of so many hangingville addresses!!

***Calling Star (Astra)! Mia said you’re not coming back? Is it for sure already? I have more or less two months to finally decide on dropping the bomb. Can’t wait to hear the dripping sarcasm from the Law OCS staff. Griping…

***Some shut eye, please, before I lose my sanity. Is it too much of me to ask that I want to sleep and wake up without anything bothering me like a neverending nightmare? It’s been like this since that one summer night.

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Quand s’arrêtera-t-il ? Quand commencera-t-il ? Dieu sait que je veux juste être heureux…

Un bon homme 2

Saturday, August 26th, 2006

A news of betrayal is, of course, the last one we all want to hear especially if it has the stabbing capability of changing the way we see things forever.

Browsing my MySpace account had me reviewing the pictures I stored there. One of the pictures that I make sure I always upload in any of my personal sites is the "eye", my eye. Sure enough, the "eye" is there to cover for me whenever I’m upset and my caption of that one conversation with Andrew, my cousin Ida’s boyfriend and my co-emcee during another cousin’s wedding three weeks ago, had me remembering that I was, and still am, in agreement that Andrew’s a good guy, and a fitting one, for Ida.

Ida and I are two of the three UP products in the Cardenas family. Though we do not really, hehe, mean our occasional smugness of that small fact, we can’t help it every time the external world’s challenging our worth or giving us problems intellectually and emotionally. Okay, I’ll shut up. I’m already contradicting my principles and virtues. =p This is, definitely, another story worth of another blog post some other time.

Anyway, what I’m really trying to say is that Andrew is every bit deserving of Ida and vice-versa. The news of betrayal I was talking about earlier is now having me wish and pray fervently that I’ll someday find and realize the love of an "Andrew" of my own; that every sharp curve, every steep drop is worth it if it leads me to the one who’ll be the reason of a smile I know I’ll have for keeps. :)

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My grateful acknowledgement for Joy, Leo and Ellen. I sincerely want to meet and help "her", Leo, just like what you and the ECCI guys did for me during that time my world crashed into pieces and I had no choice but to painstakingly rebuild it.

Un bon homme

Friday, August 25th, 2006

Chère maman :

J’ai vu la Lorie Grace aujourd’hui au SM. Elle était avec son papa et son mari. Son papa m’a dit qu’elle a épousé un bon homme et je conviens.

Je pense vous savez que je suis envieux d’elle. Elle a trouvé un bon homme qui l’aime et l’adore. Quand vous étiez encore vivant, vous m’aidiez priez pour mes problèmes. Svp aidez-moi à prier pour qu’un bon homme vienne à ma rencontre, aussi.

Je t’aime. Je m’ennuie de toi.

Votre fille,

Precious

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Pardon my "barok" French. I am trying my best to learn it. Hehe.

GKNB and the UP bird: The battle continues

Tuesday, August 22nd, 2006

If anybody from ABS-CBN might be reading this, please be assured that I would continuously try to validate the piece of information that I hold. On a positive note, the initiative of Ms. Kris Aquino’s GKNB staff in trying to reach me to explain their side has opened an avenue for a discussion that the University of the Philippines might also would like to look into.

I just can’t let this seemingly small "blunder" committed by the researchers of the hit TV show Game Ka Na Ba (GKNB) of ABS-CBN be forgotten as no more than a trivial matter presented by a crazed televiewer in need of her 15 minutes of fame.

Shown below were the correspondences between Mr. Mark Rejano and Mr. Bong Barrameda of GKNB and me to set the record straight regarding the two sides of what transpired during the August 17 episode as explicitly mentioned during my previous post on the said day:

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Dear Mr. Rejano and Mr. Barrameda:
Thank you for taking your time in answering my query. I am highly appreciative that the GKNB staff took their time out in reaching me and explaining their side.
Then again, the side I have is backed by no less than former UP President Francisco Nemenzo himself from his article at the UP publication UP Forum.
According to Nemenzo, the UP bird in the seal is a parrot; that in fact, during his college days in UP, the UP Fighting Maroons were actually called "UP Parrots". The juniors were called "Baby Parrots". This piece of fact was also published in the UP Diliman student publication "Philippine Collegian" of which I was once a part of.
A closer examination of the UP seal at the UP Main Library would also reveal that it’s a parrot.
Furthermore, the word or color "maroon" is a color dominant of the species of parrots. In fact, there is such one species that is called with the word "maroon" on it and I quote:
"The Maroon-fronted Parrot Rhynchopsitta terrisi is a large, macaw-like parrot. It is a dark green with a dark red shoulder and a maroon forehead an eye-stripe. It wings and tail appear to be black when it is in flight. It makes a high, rolling cr-a ak sound. Groups sound similar to the Acorn Woodpecker if they are heard from a distance.

Maroon-fronted Parrots live in mature pine, mixed conifer, and pine-oak forests from 2000 to 3500 meters. They nest in limestone cliffs near moving water in large colonies. This bird is endemic to the Sierra Madre Oriental in Nuevo León, Coahuila and Tamaulipas, Mexico. Breeding coincides with the fruition of pines, which is its main food source, and they lay one to three eggs in July. These juveniles fledge around November. They migrate over short distances seasonally.

This bird is considered vulnerable due to overgrazing and habitat destruction. It is estimated that only 2500-3000 birds remain, while 95 to 110 young are produced in a year."

Add to maroon the color green, which, is also a plummage dominant of parrots and we have the official colors of the University of the Philippines.
I understand what you meant of UP sounding ridiculous for affiliating itself with parrots but think of it this way, why would the UP administration allow a continuous proliferation of those FOPC packets every year for freshmen from UP Diliman to UP Manila to UPLB if what these say is untrue?
Respectfully yours,
Maria Preciosa T. Cardenas
0927-397-6134; 699-6152
mark rejano <rejano_mark@yahoo.com> wrote:
First, allow us to thank you for dutifully watching our show.  We likewise appreciate the effort you took in calling us about an alleged error on our part regarding a question in the atras abante round, the question is "Sa Pinoy schools, Anong ibon ang nasa logo ng University of the Philippines".  Please see below response letter of Mr. Borrameda Research Consultant for Pilipinas, Game ka na ba?

Dear Ms Cardenas,

Not a few people, including many UP graduates and students, think that the bird on the official logo or seal of the University of the Philippines is a parrot. It’s an almost embarrassing misconception that finally should be corrected.

The bird on the logo is, and has always been, an eagle – an American bald eagle, to be exact. A simple visual examination of the logo would easily affirm this.

So why an eagle? UP was established by the American colonial government in Manila in 1908, with Murray Bartlett as first president. In fact, the original name of UP was AUP or American University of the Philippines. Not surprisingly, the colonialists chose to enshrine on the university’s seal Uncle Sam’s avian symbol of power and "independence."

The parrot myth started after the creation of the NCAA (there was no UAAP then) cage wars in the 1920s. The UP squad was then called the Maroons and Greens (now Fighting Maroons). When Ateneo later on decided to change its team’s name from the Blue and Whites to the Blue Eagles (although no eagle appears on the school’s official logo), some folks at the Pamantasan ng Pilipinas felt that UP should also have an animal sports symbol. And when certain individuals thought that the bird on the UP logo could not be an eagle because it was already Atenean property, the parrot fallacy was born.

Symbolism-wise, the parrot is an unwise choice to represent the State University’s scholarly image and spirit of "makibaka, huwag matakot.’ Although popular as a pet, this bird often denotes the inability to think for oneself, repeating only what others say. In many cultures around the world, it is a symbol of babbling humans - and not of erudite ones.

Please visit the websites of various UP organizations, especially the UP Vanguard, where the origin of the UP Eagle is well-explained.

Thank you for your valuable thoughts and time.

Sincerely,

BONG BARRAMEDA

Research Consultant

Pilipinas, GKNB?
Thanks again
Mark Rejano
Executive Producer
Pilipinas, Game ka na ba?

Down the path my dad took

Monday, August 21st, 2006

Though I am upfront in saying I detest anything that’s to do with politics, I’ve always known that subconsciously, I like the thrill that comes in immersing oneself in controversies, formalities, cover-ups and strategies.

Just this morning, I landed a new job. Again. As if I’m not busy enough. But who am I to complain? My dad primarily needs me to be as geographically close to him as possible for all the reasons one can imagine be it due to his health reasons or due to, yes, political reasons. Just like what law blockie Mia told me earlier when I was sulking in misery, in the end I’d soon realize that it’s far better to sacrifice for loved ones.

Mother knows best? Or father knows best? My case would have to say that both parents know best. Then again, since it’s my dad who is the only one I have left and who’s always been my workaholic "pusher" (wahehe) and sadist backer in terms of career, I really have nothing else that could refute the fact that I have always been in good hands every single time I follow his suggestions (that are more like commands, if you ask me). And he’s too damn smug about it every time I have no choice but to admit that, well, he’s right. Haha. But I love him despite of and in spite of.

Okay so about the new job. Starting Thursday, I will be the personal aid/executive assistant to Mrs. Janet Olivarez, the wife of Laguna Vice Governor Edwin Olivarez. Under their foundation, the Angat Laguna Foundation, I am in charge, as well, of the youth/media/women sector, with my dad as my colleague in media. My "new" Tita Janet, as she prefers to be called, told me that I will be accompanying her in her regular travels, both international and local, especially now that from surveys, Vice Gov has a big chance of winning the gubernatorial elections and that the campaign is already as intensive as ever so much so that she and dad landed an "agreement" that they’ll really make sure I won’t be getting married until I’m in my 30s. Eeeep. Haha. I was telling Van earlier that with these in my hands eating my time and energy, looks like I won’t be needing much protection anymore from the temptations of evil forces called "men". Good luck naman siguro kung magka-bf pa ako or at least kung may magka-interes na ligawan pa ako! Haha. Bitter. But that’s another story.

Maybe it really has always been in me. In terms of protesting and claiming that I hate politics, I definitely would lose what with my C.V. containing all the list of positions in the affiliations I’ve had as my very nemesis. I guess it’s really high time that I admit to myself that I like the spotlight. I like leadership. I like service, cheesy and "plastic" as it may sound. I like politics.

On the lighter side and, hehehe, gloomier side as well, I like political gossip  -  who’s dating who, whose controversy is scripted, who blew her top off while being covered by the media in her most awkward of moments (hehehe…my dad’s involved in one such story…quiet muna ako who’s the political figure involved), who needs good and bad propaganda. Trust me. The fourteen years I have been immersed in politics courtesy of my dad, it kinda was rubbed off into me so much so that I could say I’ve seen, heard and experienced almost everything.

Fourteen years. Year 1992 was the time when I first stepped in Laguna land. It was also the time my innocent mind was subjected to the "fun" indecencies real politics bring about. Dad was the legislative chief of staff of the congressman of the second district and was lead campaign manager when this congressman ran for governor. The next few years still saw my dad working in Congress for another congressman who, like the first one, ran for governor but failed to win. Two years ago, dad elevated himself to the upper congressional chamber as media consultant of Senator Mar Roxas. Politics, the internal kind, brought him back to Laguna this time under the mayors of two of the biggest cities in the province.

But of course, what with my dad’s intensive media and political clout, he once also had the chance of elevating himself to direct public service when he ran as the first district’s provincial board member in 1998. Unfortunately, he lost. How I still wish though that someday he’ll realize this dream of his. I am sure he will make a fine political leader with a few indecencies. Hehe.

I could go on all day trying to enumerate and narrate what the immediate members of my family have individually gone through in politics, be it external or internal. The thing is, how am I supposed to fail somebody who, until recently, I know as just my regular enemy…err…dad? Sure I know that Mr. Felicisimo "Momoy" B. Cardenas is big on the PR side. He’s currently the president and founding chairman of the Laguna Media Professionals Society (LAMPS) and he’s been, for the last 22 years, a Manila Bulletin correspondent. But it’s really politics that opened my eyes on just how "big" my dad is in Laguna so much so that the political figure I mentioned who blew her top off is always on a balancing act with him and vice-versa.

Could it be fate? It’s possible. When I mentioned earlier to Vice Gov that I was once a junior vice governor of Laguna under the Youth Development Affairs (YDA) of the governor’s office in the Provincial Capitol in Santa Cruz, he told me it’s a big coincidence because the head of the YDA office during my tenure, Avel, is now his youth coordinator for the Angat Laguna Foundation. And true enough, Kuya Avel still knows me and has never stopped in teasing me about my "affairs" during the Youth Week ‘98 and ‘99 celebration from the time I texted him earlier.

So Precious, this is your time to redeem yourself from the multitudes of excuses you made during your brief "now-you-see-me-now-you-don’t" stint with that cutie congressman from the second district. You’ve got no more excuse. The office of Vice Gov is just 15-30 minutes away from your house.